Mood:  a-ok
yeah, i've been better, but then again, i've been worse, for whoever reads this...anyway..and me morgan broke up last night...and now me and the love of my life (which i never got over) are back together, i just feel like pure shit doing that to morgan, but i have to do what's best for me, OH WELL! but yeah i had to clean the house today, it sucked. because im definatly worn out.but that's fine. yea today has been OK i guess. yeah im listening to my dad play the piano. god he gave me headache..lol well nothing more to say!

♥ Jen

Mood:  not sure
yeah...today sucked...went to the movies with morgan...and then i broke up with him...its sucked...but i cant helpe what i feel i guess..i mean yea...i still care about him..but i care about alot of people. i mean im still not over my first love...so why should i try to get over him if its not going to work...btw...his name is Josh...and he's the most best thing ever. i don't care who you are or who you daddy is..he's the best person in my book. i love him so much...in everyway there is.

not much more to say...i just miss him alot..

♥ Jen

Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: You Found me- Kelly Clarkson
OMG!!! i can't believe what is ACTUALLY happening! my luck has changed so damn much! i am SOOOO happy! now that i finally found someone! which by the way...his name is Morgan..and my god...i love him already! i don't know what it is about him, but i can't help but want more of it! and all of you all are probably thinking, "oh...it's just another b/f" yeah well it's not...having someone that actually FOUND your inner true self feels amazing! i'm not worried about anything anymore...all of my stress went away, my confusion and just everything! omg..i think im inlove...i've never EVER EVER EVER felt this way about a guy..it's like, everytime i see him..i get butterflies (or should i say BATS! lol) and when i talk to him...i can't see/hear/feel anything or anyone else....it's incredible..only goofy part is...he's a red-head..and i've never dated a red-head...but he's like the biggest sweetheart ever. ok. well now im talking about that too much....Hmm...well i still haven't found out what is wrong with me...but that's all i can really say...

♥ Jen

You found Me

Mood:  happy
well, i guess i can stop whining and crying! today was great! well...there's this...(boy)...and he's really awesome...i don't know WHAT it is about him, but i'm like constantly smiling now...i mean yeah, we've been talking for a while...but like..a couple of days ago...i relized he's about the only person around that can make me smile soooo much! wow. i feel like a little school girl, talkin' about this.......................BUT, i still have bad news...in the morning, at 8 (am) i have to go for an ultrasound...(NO I'M NOT PREGNANT!!!!!) you can get ultrasounds for almost anything..yeah, they have to look for those damn'd kidney stones...well thats all i can say for now..ttyl! ♥ Jen

Mood:  irritated
omg! today had to be one of the worst days! i went to the doctor, and i found out what was wrong with me, i actually had 2 thing's wrong with me, one thing is that i have fluid around my ovaries (more on my left) and also around my bladder and kidneys, another is that i have a couple of kidney stones, and goddd are those painful! =( i dont know, but everything keeps getting worse, it just sucks completely. well i really don't have much to say.

<3 Jen

I guess you can say my day def. SUCKED ASS! i went to school. and collapsed in the hallway, and i had to go straight to the Emergency room. Other then that, i have more stress. i just don't know what to do anymore. it feels like everytime i make a decision, i either take it back, or i don't get what i want out of it. and that goes for EVERYTHING in everyday life. it's kinda like you make a sacrifice for something/someone, but it/they don't appriciate it as much as you do. it's like the harder i try, the harder i fall. i don't know, it's just been rough for me these last couple of weeks. and yes of course i keep telling myself, "the past is the past" but the "past" still haunts me in some ways. for example, my past relationships problems, have followed me the whole way so far. and it's killing me to know that i can't have what i used to have. and i hate when everyone thinks they know exactly what you're talking about, especially when they don't. it pisses me off. yeah i know people have it worse then me. but i can't go to anyone anymore. all the friends that i thought were my "friends" aren't there anymore. it pretty much just sucks. well nothing more to say.. bye! <3 Jen